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Swine flu jab earlier. Arm hurts like a fucker. Can't sleep either. Although, amazingly, NOT in a particularly bad mood right now.

I AM a smoker. I try to be a considerate one; I don't deliberately seek out groups of non-smokers nor do I smoke around people who are eating or children.
However I have had non-smokers cross the road specifically to walk up to me and faux-cough loudly.
That's just fucking rude.
Someone treats me like that, they automatically and instantly lose ANY rights they might have had to be treated civilly by me. I WILL blow smoke at them. I WILL be an asshole to them. I WILL tell them exactly what I think of them, and I will not be polite.

The only right I expect from a non-smoker is the same one I expect from everyone; to be treated politely and with respect. If I, as a supposedly dirty disgusting smoker, can do it, then they fucking well can too.

Or they can cunt off and die in a hole.

The next cunt that's fucking stupid enough to ask me if I want to pretend to be a fucking fish, or asks me to join their imaginary mafia, or asks me to give them a fucking cow for their non-existent fucking farm (or even to start my own non-existent fucking fucking farm so they can ponce imaginary fucking animals that don't exist from me), or wants me to throw a fucking snowball at them (or I'll lose an imaginary snowball fight! OH NOES! Cunt.) or any other of that fucking cretinous Facebook app drivel, gets cut from my FB list on the fucking spot.
I just had my swine flu jab and my fucking arm hurts. Don't try my patience, fuckheads.

Thought I'd repost this from TFW, for LJ peeps to see.
Warning: this post may contain traces of nuts and insults. I don't like these movies, so I will be ranting about them somewhat viciously. I can't help it; I know what I like, and I didn't like these.
So. In no particular order (since I view them all to be utter rubbish) my bottom 10 picks for the absolute worst celluloid atrocities I can remember wishing I hadn't ever seen ever are:

The Crow: Wicked Prayer - Whoever came up with the idea for any Crow sequels should be shot. Whoever came up with the idea for this festering, feculent drivel should be tortured first.
The Fog (remake) - Let's take one of the finest ghost story movies ever and MTV the shit out of it. Starring the annoying bitch from Lost season one, and the wet twat from Smallville.
Ghosts of Mars - Fucking hell, Carpenter. What happened to you?
Twilight - Oh look at me! I'm a vampire, you know! I sparkle in daylight like the least heterosexual supernatural creature you can imagine. Later in my life I'll marry a remarkably dull teenager, and my baby will try to eat its way out of her flange. Then I'll turn her into a vampire, and the 2 of us (and our super intelligent baby, much like the one in the hit UK sitcom My Hero, only SHIT) will live happily ever after in a magical land full of happy thoughts and plastic goths. What a hoot! Come Mary Sue, let us play baseball and prance around like UNBELIEVABLE TOSSERS.
Absolute unadulterated bullshit on every conceivable level. Avoid like fucking swine flu.
Star Wars: The Phantom Menace - Where the hell do I start? Oh yes, I know:
"The Force is what gives a Jedi his power. It's an energy field generated by all living beings. It surrounds us, penetrates us. It binds the galaxy together."
-- Obi-Wan Kenobi, A New Hope
"No, The Force is a bunch of microscopic parasites that live in your blood, and make bowl haired children who can't act for shit unbelievably lucky."
-- George Lucas, whilst frenziedly masturbating into a pile of money
Wanker.
S.S. Doomtrooper - If the Nazis really had perfected a method of genetically engineering huge unrealistic badly composited stormtroopers with gatling guns on their arms, the war really would have gone differently; the Allies would have died laughing.
Street Fighter: The Movie - We're sorry, Raul. We're really, really fucking sorry.
I Know Who Killed Me - You know, and we don't fucking care. Sod off. I couldn't even sit through to the end of this crap.
Indiana Jones And The Temple Of The Crystal Skull - Ark of the Covenant + Nazis = brilliant idea. Sankara Stones + Thugees = sinister as hell. Holy motherfucking Grail + Nazis + Sean Connery + Michael Sheard as Hitler = nothing short of genius.
Ropey looking aliens + Ageing movie star + Boring Russians = TOTAL BOLLOCKS.
Dracula 2000 - According to mythology, Judas Iscariot had red hair. This is a large part of why many cultures find people with red hair to be untrustworthy.
According to no mythology I have ever encountered was he a vaguely podgy faced pillock with curly black hair and a shit eating smile. Even Jeri Ryan's prodigious chest couldn't save this from being one of the worst movies I have had the displeasure to sit through.

Went to see Kunt And The Gang live this evening. Angry emails aside, it was an awesome night out.
( Anyway! Pictures, dammit! )

It's pissing down with rain. I have a splitting headache, and I am in an exceptionally bad mood.
I am angry with my bank for stiffing me out of £24, and I am angry with someone who I thought cared about me for consistently ignoring me for almost 6 months now.

I would say was at my wits' end, but I went past that a long time ago. I'm into the realms of "feeling like I'm being actually treated with contempt" now.
And I am done with it.

I've called my bank and lodged an official compaint about their ineptitude and double standards. And now for at least part of the other matter.

Dear Shannon,
I would like you to send my stuff as soon as possible please. I have waited a very long time for it (since I left Long Island on June 8 this year in fact).
I would very much like to be able to give the WWE wrestling ring to my youngest nephew as a Christmas present, so I want my things here by Christmas. Please let me know when you send them, and provide me with the tracking information as soon as you get it.
Thank you.
Pete

I had an interesting chat with Mum today.
She helps out an old woman who lives fairly close to us; every time Mum goes to collect her pension she also picks up this woman's for her as well. She drives her out to see her daughter (who does not live locally) as well, and never gets any money for petrol. Most of the time she's not even thanked. She also drives other people around too. They hardly ever bother giving her anything towards the costs either. They pretty much take it for granted that she'll jump when they tell her to.
My Mum is really good to people, and most of them take it for granted or treat her like shit. I made a comment about how I know the feeling, and she said she wasn't even surprised.
"Your Gran was like this too. And your sister is. It runs in the family."
Then she gave me a hug and said "I'm sorry you're like it too."
And then she went out to cart some of these people off to lunch.
So to put it another way, I am genetically predisposed to letting people treat me like shit, while at the same time trying to do everythying I can to please them. I think that's worse than the migraines.

I'd love to stop. Really I could. But I think part of me hopes that one day I'll be treated properly by someone who really does care about me, and doesn't just say so every few weeks before ignoring me again. And as I am currently finding out, there is a very thin line between feeling like you're being treated badly and feeling like you're being treated with outright contempt.

I am sick to death of being ignored and treated like I'm fucking shit on their shoe by people who simultaneously claim to care about me. Caring about someone HAS to be backed up by actions; no matter how small or insignificant they may be, those actions are noticed. And their absence is noticed even more. When you love someone with all your heart, do nothing wrong and they turn round and treat you like you're a cunt because they upset you, it fucking hurts. I wouldn't wish that on anyone. Maybe that's my problem.

I need to summon up some of that contempt for myself, I tihnk. I could certainly put it to good use if I could just stop pointlessly hoping things will improve and just walk the fuck away from the people who hurt me.

My head hurts. I'm going back to bed.

A CD of Autobahn by Kraftwerk
A photo of my parents
A list of my exes, and why they're exes

Happy 70th birthday Mum!

OK. First post on LJ from my Blackberry. Fuck, I love this phone.

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A lot of people don't seem to use LJ any more. A lot of others never comment. I am therefore about to cull a lot of people from my friends list.
If I remove you and it bugs me, comment here and I'll re-add you. Comments will be screened.

The Beatles? Influential?
BULLSHIT.


Try pretty much creating an entire fucking genre.


I don't give a fuck what anyone else on the face of the planet says; Kraftwerk are the greatest band ever.

I would love to be able to say that I forgive and forget; I nearly always used to. However being used as an emotional punching bag for the last couple of decades, not to mention the number of people who have flat out let me down without a second thought over the years, has changed that drastically. I don't forgive any more, and I never forget.
I am TERRIBLE for holding grudges; I remember everything; every slight, every insult. Every time someone treats me like a cunt gets logged, and I always remember them all. Once someone loses my faith in them, they VERY rarely get it back.

The most recent grudge I've had was the asshole who ruined what should have been one of the best parts of a recent holiday I took to the US. If I never meet him again, it'll be a million fucking years too soon. That's All I have to say about him.
As for the longest grudge I've held, that's somewhere in the region of 20 years now, and it's my Dad's old business partner. He ran the company they formed into the ground by doing fuck all work and not lifting a finger to help. Meanwhile my Dad ran round doing everything; driving all over the country delivering to clients, almost ALL the engineering work (it was a precision engineering company; the kind of stuff that my Dad made was so precise that you could lose one of the drills under your fingernail), all the paperwork, while this cunt just sat there with a shit eating grin on his face draining all the money. Eventually the business went under. Dad was devastated.
And when Dad got cancer, this cunt didn't come to see him ONCE. He didn't even bother going to Dad's funeral (probably a good thing; I'd have kicked him to death on sight, and still would)
I regularly comb the obituary columns looking for any mention of him. If/when I DO find out that he's dead, I WILL find where he is buried or where his ashes have been scattered and make a special journey there.
And I will take a shit on it.
And then dance.
I have NOTHING but scorn and outright hatred for this cunt. I wish him nothing but utter misery, pain and suffering, and the sooner he is dead the better. And if I EVER see him again I will happily expedite the process without a second fucking thought.

I wouldn't be surprised to see this thread:
Trollbait threads
deleted, or filled with snarky replies from TFW staff members; not because of the subject matter as such, but because it basically calls out a member of TFW staff on their OWN conduct.
For posterity, here is the post itself:
Only example I have is the thread Kickback made awhile ago Do you have Aspergers? which got me an infraction. What does TFW moderation think of these sorts of threads because it's almost entirely trolls trolling trolls
Personally I would LOVE to see a decent reply from Kickback as to why he can troll other board members while coming down on people who do his job for him. I won't be holding my breath, though.

Edit:
Yup. it's gone. TFW2005 - wonderful at dishing it out, but can't take it in the slightest.

"I don't know why you'd want to learn the keyboard; you should learn a nice sensible instrument, like the cornet."
-One of my junior school teachers
Yeah. That lasted 2 lessons. And I now own my own fully digital recording studio. :)